Well I went downtown to watch the fireworks.....
I'm not sure I liked the experience AT ALL.
Its cold and raining which I don't mind- I grabbed a coffee and found a hill that overlooks the city.
I stood there in the rain, in the pitch black on the edge of the hill by myself looking at the city scape and watched the fireworks; all I could hear was rain and the boom of the explosions.
I started feeling really uncomfortable- thinking about the haunting and cruel beauty and tragedy of life.
Sometimes its too beautiful to take in ; as well as too tragic at the same time.
I really wanted to walk away and shake off that feeling; but I stayed there in the rain by myself in the dark and watched the duration of the fireworks and just accepted that feeling as best as I could.
I hate that feeling- the ocean makes me feel like that too- standing on a deserted beach along the shoreline; feeling the rush of the ocean.
A bleak landscape covered in snow makes me feel like that too- so does watching snowfall or rain in a street light on a cold and empty night.
This song makes me feel that way too-
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=8mb1ILIQvdM