Luvmygirls, I had a similar upbringing by parents who drank. My mother was a daily drinker and I don't think I saw her without a drink past 5pm since I was about 12 years old. Like you said, in the evenings she was just gone...a completely different person. Family vacations were horrible because my mom was a crabby, belligerent drunk and being stuck in a hotel with that was torture.
day 57. I feel ready to step things up and start the job search. The last 5 years, maintaining employment has been a struggle. I've been fired from 3 jobs because I couldn't stay sober. I couldn't stay sober during job searching either and went to interviews after having visited the pub first. One particular interview was especially bad because I was sweating profusely from alcohol withdrawal. I can either work or I can drink. I can't do both. I feel I can now give 100% effort to getting my career back on track without it being derailed by my drinking again.