Originally Posted by
ZamZam 
Hi, why wouldn't you be open about it? Fear of judgement?
I felt cathartic releasing all these things that I don't usually tell people but I think speaking them out loud will help me get it off my chest.
That being said I don't believe in God and am a determined atheist so I don't know if I want to go to a meeting where I pledge allegiance to God and admit I am "powerless"
Common sense. You don't know who is listening. You don't know what they might do with the information. You don't know how you will feel about what you have said in the future. Much safer to keep such information for those qualified to handle it.
I have been to a few thousand AA meetings and have yet to see anyone make any pledge alliegence to anything. I may have been powerless over alcohol, but paradoxically, I have as much power as I need to handle everything else. Perhaps you should learn a bit more about AA before you dismiss it.