Please don't punish yourself with guilt. You did your very best with none of his cooperation or meeting you half way. He's the man...he should be there and protect you! I'm going through something similar. I was in the process of leaving an abuser when he had a bad stroke and he was nice in the hospital to everyone but me......... and I found him laying in his apt. for 3 days... I saved his life!! His family hates me now but I'm done!! I'm taking care of myself now and going to finally enjoy my sobriety. You count and you are enough just the way you are!!!
