I'm sorry it's a tough morning Suze. You're yet in the early stages of grieving so a good cry is sometimes a needed release.
When you're ready I'd love to learn more about your general trip agenda. What locations do you know for sure that you want to visit? You mentioned California....what area do your friends live? Sounds like the east coast is on the agenda as well.
Phoebe, are y'all going somewhere fun for a few days?