Originally Posted by
thomas11 
I (along with my wife, family and friends) were feeling very positive about how much my health and demeanor has improved in the last 12 months. But that does not seem to carry over to this forum.
No one here wants to see you fall again, Jeff. You've gotten a tremendous amount of support from many people since you've been here. This includes people responding to your honest though sometimes worrisome or disturbing comments around your thoughts and feelings towards alcohol and painkillers.
I think it's become clear that you carry ambivalence around your use of alcohol and drugs, and it would be a disservice if we didn't let you know what we see, particularly when you don't yourself seem to appreciate what's going on.
You have a competitive nature, but recovery isn't a contest. There are no trophies or parades for setting things right. We're here to help each other to keep on moving in a good direction, to get to a better place, and not to undercut people's progress for sport.