Alcohol, now become the rapacious creditor, bleeds us of all self-sufficiency and all will to resist its demands...
Fatal progressive loss of control, whose ends are always the same: jails, institutions, and death.
ah heck what would AA know about it. I'll quit next week. All that fool God stuff just isn't for me. Tried it. Found it wanting.
Maybe you can yet get a handle on it in another way. If you can still work, what about saving up for a year, and checking out a good sanitarium rehab or two? Some, resolved, just post postings here and manage fine?
The whole AA thing about taking deep serious fundamental stock of one's life, motivations and conduct toward this planet and as it affects others is often a bit high of a bar. More for desperate last gaspers. Damn hard work too if you ask me.
ain't no imaginary silent partner creator nonsense gonna mess with my careful power and planning!