I used to lie and bend the truth when I was younger. ( I was always worrying about what others thought. I had to be kool. I was afraid of offending anyone). As I got older I found life was so much easier for me,if I just put all of my cards on the table right from the getgo. I stopped lying,and pretending long before I quit drinking. Except to myself. When it came to drinking,I most always lied to myself.
Why not quit drinking to see just where you stand. Or better yet ,quit lying and drinking both. Doesn't it appear that life would get easier without both of these things throwing wrenches in the works?