I hope so so much you have fun! "Jam" bands and the festie circuit has been a huge part of my life as well. Im 5 months sober right now and I am thinking of attempting a Panic show in September. I still listen the music at home without getting triggered and still enjoy it all so much. I am really hoping I dont have to give up this part of my life. There are recovery communities at the shows, with meeting at set break... I know Panic has the Gateway and Dead has the Wharfrats. Cant remember what Phish's recovery community is called. Look for the yellow balloons. That is where you will find other sober heads. Good luck and please report back.