Hi sweet friend...it's been a while.
I hear you, it's scary. It's ok to still be in healing mode. I am too. Just be careful to not lump all men in the same drunk boat because they aren't all the same -- thank God for that!
Take your time. Keep healing and working on you and all those issues and ugly words that pop into your head because they're not true. I'm proof...I'm still dating Mr Harley and quite happy. Trust is an off and on issue, not because he's ever done anything untrustworthy, but because that is what I've become accustomed to over the years living with an addict. It will change for us both, so chin up!! Don't let your ex and all the lies he spewed for so long rob you of the future happiness you deserve.
Hugs to you, Amy!