Day 40. My life needs a whole new rebuild. I had to hit rock bottom unfortunately, but rock bottom is the solid foundation I will build on (stole that line from somewhere). It's so overwhelming when I think about all those lost years and the monumental task ahead of me. It causes anxiety and drives me to drink. However, I have figured out that all I need is to do the next right thing, one day at a time. For now, not drinking is the only thing I need to accomplish today.