Lack of PEACE is sadly and very common human malady.
I think many of us have reached points in our lives when what we wanted and needed the MOST was PEACE.
But the only way any of us are going to find TRUE peace is if we are completely honest with ourselves first in realizing we simply *don't*have*peace*.
It is at that junction of admitting to ourselves we do not have peace (but very much wanting it) that we start to look for it and we become so desperate for PEACE that we become WILLING to do whatever it takes to get it...and then: Our lives become TRANSFORMED, friend.
I can pretty much be confident that you will feel more peace in your life minus a girlfriend right now. As much as you may be attracted to and enjoy women Ach, the fact of the matter remains that they can be a big royal PAIN. They can be charming, cunning, manipulative, crafty, catty, controlling, needy, histrionic, conniving, interfering, and the list goes on. Not saying we don't have our merit, not at all. Just saying that it's much better to be happy healthy single than to be miserably in a relationship.