I think you rock for reaching out for support
Relationships are tricky no matter how much sobriety you have. That is what I found out. I met my now ex-husband in the rooms. We got married and had my son. Then I stopped going to meetings and started believing I was "normal" and I started drinking again. Eight years and a divorce later that happened as he cheated on me and he was evil. I, however, went back to AA. I got clean in NA but started going to AA meetings as I was struggling with alcohol. There are a lot of different AA meetings around me in Vermont; obviously I have to drive a bit to get to some. Don't let anyone EVER drive you away from the support that you need. Find a new meeting, find new people, and stay here on SR.
And I don't think you are being negative....I think you are doing life
There are ups and downs as we all have to figure out how to do this sober living "thing".