The terror is the anxiety, withdrawals, and craving all rolled up into ball in your toxic mind and body.
Right now you are physically and mentally addicted. You are a sick kid.
Stay hydrated, eat clean. Sleep, sleep, sleep.
The major physical addiction goes away in a week, the less painful took me a month. The mental last for a long time. I am still a bit jacked.
If you drink, it is a relapse.
We have crossed the line, we are addicts. If you keep that thought in your mind, I am an addict, it helps in the battle.
No more nice glass of red, or a cold one. Booze is our kryptonite.
We are in a fight for our lives.
I started 1 day at a time. Now...I don't drink. I am a proud sober man.
Pray if you can. Give in to your higher power. He can help. That is step 1 of AA.
Keep posting.
Thanks.