It crushed me. I wanted to be a healthy couple. I knew something was wrong even then and to have it end like that it was like a glaring spotlight was put on the problem and I couldn't deny it anymore. I remember crying in the shower because I wanted us to have romance and talks and walks and connect and it wasn't like that at all.
We met a couple there and the guy informed us he was going to surprise his girlfriend with a proposal that night. I was jealous because I knew that would never happen for me and AXBF.
It took another couple years before I was forced to swallow that glass. I just didn't want to admit our relationship was nothing like I wanted it to be and that it was over.
I think I was looking for a trip to fix us. It couldn't have ended any worse