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It's good to share those memories, and I agree with Firebolt, keep writing them down, and sharing here...
I've had a similar experiences... back in the days before I had kids and AH and I were both drinking too much too often.
Once in a crowded casino I went to the bathroom and then couldn't find my way back to AH for several hours. He was searching for me, and had someone page me over the loud speaker. I only vaguely remember stumbling through the crowds...
Another time, AH and I together got lost from (or ditched? I'm not really sure) the mostly sober couple we were hanging out with that night.
I have embarrassment and guilt over those times...
Blackouts are so scary because you don't know, and will likely never know what happened, and what you did during those times. When I think about times I used to drink to blackout, it still causes me to feel embarrassed and shameful, and just yucky ...