Originally Posted by
Marissa41 
Sometimes I feel it's already too late and I'm waiting for a bomb to go off. It's that thought of how much longer do I have to live?
Well, a doctor is the one to best answer that question. However, if your body is in fact breaking down you need to do something about the drinking.
Now, how you do that is up to you but you probably will need help.
My uncle was told flat out to stop drinking. If he kept it up he was going to die. He stopped. Cold turkey. No AA . No nothing. Just stopped.
However, I needed a support group (AA) to stop own out of control drinking.
In any case keep posting. You'll find lots of support here.