I not can walk cuz is like 117 outside. Maybe I get on trampoline later, but I in phase of crashing without my stimulants, so I has be very gentle right now and not get into headspace of, "WTF?! I can barely get out of bed! How will I work?!" Etc. So I gotta be like, yes Cow, you nervous system not know what in hell going on right now. It okay, relax.
I did one good thing today, as I was leaving market, little kid run smack into me and look up at me terrified, so I summon ever ounce of fake energy I got to say all chipper like, "It's okay, sometime I invisible!" And his mama laugh and the urchin laugh. That about only gift I got for self or the world today, but is something.
PS. I super jealous of you runners. I always wish I could run. It look like freedom to me. (I not can run cuz I has lung deformity.)