I dunno about hopeful Hevyn. Just a shorter word for expectation.
But I do recall you were one of the 1st to respond many years back when I first came here. It took me years to get sober. Years. But I am doing it. you r story was one that I felt, "If she can do it maybe I can".
I mean some never live to see the day. My days are not what I would call pleasant. But still I persevere.