Hi Ambular, hope you're doing ok. I just wanted to chime in and say that detox was no big deal to me. At rehab, they gave us some librium for a couple days and that did the trick. And some B vitamins, as alcohol depletes those. The worse thing I had was that I peed a lot and sometimes got the sweats at night. But that was very manageable and didn't last. Could you find a place to detox? It will be a lot more comfortable than attempting it at home! I couldn't get with AA or 12 Steps but if it works for you, definitely go back to meetings!!