Ah Tans, I know how you feel! I drank for exactly the same reason, but it's just putting things off! Unless you are going to stay drunk for the rest of your life you will have to come down sometime..that's what I was thinking 3 days ago anyway. How much worse it will be if you keep putting off stopping.
If you have the self control to just have "a few to feel normal"..and I don't, those will wear off in a few hours and you'll be back to feeling like you are now.
Do you think you have been drinking heavily enough to need a proffessional detox?
I didn't get one to stop..but I do feel like I am about to die when I do it alone.
A black pit of panic, shakes, sweats, can't eat or sleep...