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FutureTrip 
Thank you everyone for your support and words. I think writing out a list of why I'm doing this and pros for making this change will help me a lot. I was wondering if anyone has a similar experience with their alcoholic as my AH, as in that admits he is an alcoholic, he truly means it when he says he won't drink again (until he picks up his next drink), he hides the drinks he does have because I think he really thinks "that was one slip up, no more" but he keeps doing it. He WANTS this to end, but he it is too hard for him to fight. I read so many stories wives leaving when their AH won't admit there is a problem or flat out say they won't or don't want to stop. Because I see the pain of the struggle he's going through, it does make it so much harder for me to turn my back. It feels cold sometimes evenot though I know it's what I have to do.
FT, this is many cases. My ex was addicted to gambling. There were countless of occasions where he blew his pay check in one night, cried, vowed he won't do it again, stays "good" for a month, and then boom the whole cycle continues again. I left 9 years ago and to no surprise, you can still find him at the local casinos every pay check Friday's.
My Husband is an alcoholic. He fully admits he is an alcoholic. A couple years ago he quit cold turkey, was sober for a few months. Then boom, one sip of beer leads him back at square one. Drank for the next couple years until 2 months ago where he checked into rehab. At first he was hesitant to go to rehab and thought he can just quit on his own and that he can muster up the strength to quit "cold turkey" again and he certainly meant well saying that, but without knowledge and understanding about the disease you are just setting yourself up for failure.
Has your husband bothered to educate himself on addiction? Gone to any support group meetings? This would certainly be a good first step, but, of course it needs to be up to him and not you. Or he may be like most addicts that know they have a problem, wants to be left alone to control their own addiction the way they want to, end of story. The fact that he is hiding booze from you is proof that he wants to be left alone. He doesn't want to hear the negative consequences that he knows will come from you finding out.