Originally Posted by
LeeJane 
When my drinking addiction was active, I was EXACTLY like this. I knew and admitted I was an alcoholic and was desperate to stop. I would swear to myself that I wouldn't drink that day, and yet a few hours later. I did. I hated myself for it.
This is me on the Codie side of things. I know I need to detach. I know I shouldn't go out to the garage, shouldn't check his phone messages, shouldn't check the spare bed to see if he made it home...but I do.