Alive
I no longer want die, I chose to live.
I've let go past hurts, resentments & I've learned to forgive.
I used to blame myself for my mom's suicide,
But I let myself cry & released the anger I held inside.
I used her death as an excuse to go on a bender.
The truth is however, I was running from God & refused to surrender.
Every time I used drugs, I had a reason why.
Honestly though it was a conscious choice that "I" made to get high.
Doing drugs has hurt me and I've lost all that I've gained.
I've hurt my family, friends and kids; I've caused them so much pain.
I refuse to let drugs ruin me; I won't let them be my demise.
I drop to my knees and pray for strength and I know God hears my cries.
I'll use the coping skills I've learned; I'll be vigilant & continue to strive.
Because I don't want drugs to kill me; I want to stay alive!