My AH is an alcoholic and crack addict. I understand your trust issue. In the beginning of my relationship with my AH- I gave him the same ultimatum- no crack or I'm gone kinda thing. And for a while he quit (or hid it very well) but now- after two years of marriage I realize that whether it is crack or liqour- if he is using any of it- it is all the same. He is an addict- no matter what he is using. And if you've caught your Ah twice- chances are that there are many other times you just haven't caught him. I know it's hard to know what to do - I am living with that every day too. My son is 9 years old- and old enough he knows what is really going on- to some extent. his real dad is dead- and my AH is the only dad he has really ever known. I am sorry for what you are going through- you are not alone.
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