I had a breakthrough yesterday.
I was cleaning out old vitamin bottles and found a bud of weed my addict left for me to find later.
My initial reaction: "sweet!!"
I was alone for the day. Certainly one bud wouldn't hurt.
I set it aside and had a talk with myself. I played it through. Played through that I would feel" hungover " after. That I would want more. I rationalized that I didn't want it at all until I found it. Then I got mad at my addict for setting me up like that.
I flushed it. The best part? I was happy I did. No internal battle. No remorse. Didnt think about pot for the rest of the day. Just flushed it and forgot it.