That post from Feb is pretty alarming. Are you still drinking? If so, what has changed from Feb to now?
I doubt anyone here is judging you, have you made attempts to quit? Or are you still waiting on the fail safe scheme to quit for good? I hate to break it to you but there is no such thing. It takes work, determination, and the desire to quit.
You can do it if you really put your mind to it, and if that is what you really want.