Originally Posted by
SparkleKitty 
Hoping what would happen if you backed off on so much contact while you figure out what you want and whether this person can give it to you? We all need time and space sometimes -- I know you have distance, but all this contact just keeps your head spinning...
I get very anxious SparkleKitty when I don't talk to him. This is crazy. Is this how addicts feel when they are unable to get to their drug of choice??
I am doing everything - staying busy with friends/family, reaching out for support, seeing a therapist, researching codependency but every time I fight the urge to talk to him, I get super exhausted, anxious, sad, depressed. I was never like this before. This does not mean that I will cave in. I will keep trying and fight harder.