You are 100% right Venecia! Thank you for breaking it down like that. You are right. I do not/can not stop at one. No sense in awakening the beast like last Thursday did. Hence the intense cravings Friday and yesterday.
Truth be told, I really don't like the taste of any kind of liquor. I drank it strictly for the buzz that it gave me that turned in to black out drunks at times.
I went over and read some on the friends and family of alcoholic's today. I suggest everyone do that. It puts things in to perspective when you take a walk in their shoes and see what the loved ones fighting for us are going through.
Man my emotions have just been ALL OVER THE PLACE the last several days. Rightfully so, but at least I'm able to feel and deal with them instead of numbing them away.
Thanks again SR for listening!