I just came back here to say that this world is a tough place to stay sober in. I can't face the news that comes around seemingly every other week about a mass shooting. I was very close to one once. The worst thing is I feel powerless to do anything about it. I've done what my conscience and finances have allowed to try to fight against gun violence, but to no avail. I'm struggling against the urge to numb myself right now. The pain of the world is felt more acutely by some people I think and I am one of them.