You don't have to feel like this ever again!
Detox can be very dangerous, the ER and/or a doctor can help a lot.
Sobriety feels good, I promise. Even on the bad days we face sober, it feels better than the madness you've been living. I've been on both sides. I'm sincerely promising you that it gets better. That is the honest truth.
Sobriety delivers everything alcohol promised. True story.
Keep posting!