Hamster wheel
I look terrible, smell terrible, house is a wreck, have no idea where bills or even my bank account stands, I'm dehydrated, probably bordering malnutrition, this has got to stop.
I think what's the worst part of it is I'm so used to it. I have to get past my fears and figure out a way into rehab and really embrace a program. At the moment I have no idea how to do that. I need to get through this round of detoxing, get a few things in order, talk to work.
I'm a little more than 12 hours in, managed a little food, drinking water and Gatorade.