I'm sorry to hear that, Queenbee.
The chaos of living with an addict spouse can sometimes be easier for us to ignore than the chaos of living life on our own. At least with the former we have someone to share our frustrations with.
Hang in there and don't be afraid to ask for help from friends, family and even acquaintances. I know it's easier said than done- in fact, I'm sitting in a hot as heck house right now because my air conditioner stopped working. My neighbor across the street is an air conditioner technician who has told me on several occasions he will be happy to help me in any way possible. But I just... can't...! Sigh. I think I'm going to have to call him today.
Good luck to you and I hope you find some calm soon.