You don't have to do this alone. My suggestion? Get honest with everyone around you. Ask for help. Surrender. If you can go to rehab, go. So you can have some time to get through detox and get on your feet. If your like me, I couldn't do rehab, and live in a foreign country. And I have a family as well, so I did it on my own. I was coming off 100 pills a day, opiates...I made it. This is what I did. I worked and did meetings. I was honest. I made my whole life about recovery.
I am still working at it. You can do this. you don't have to life this way anymore.
Trust me. you family knows something is up. They will be relieved to know that you are getting help. We think we have everyone fooled, we don't.
Hang tight.