Originally Posted by
calvin86 
Its just strange , when I want to drink , all my other interests that I enjoy seem to just become pale and lifeless in comparison to the idea of going out and getting drunk. It's only when staggering home and lying in bed with the room spinning do I see that I should have stayed in , fought the craving and done something else.
It's called addiction Calvin, and it's definitely strange. Doesn't make any sense at all really. That's why the solution is to simply accept it for what it is...and realize that there's no way to "out-think" it. Accepting that you can never pick up the first drink under any circumstances.
Most of us needed help doing that....SR can be a great tool as well as many of the other formal methods. Have you ever tried a structured program like AA/NA or other meeting based recovery?