Originally Posted by
Gottalife 
Doing our utmost to straighten out the past, along with all the preceeding steps, has the effect of turning all our liabilities into assetts. "No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can help others". We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it"
These changes are part of the overal tansformation which occurs through spiritual experience/awakening.
The past. As long as my past remains a horrific disaster in my mind i will continue to stare at it. Like a grotesque car wreck I can't look away from. I'm trying to make friends with my past. Seeing the past as a building block to making the person I am now. I'm also trying hard to see the person I am now in a positive light. At the same time I actually don't dwell on the past. It is gone and the present is here. Living back there takes away from the beautiful day I am living. It is over, I survived. Hello world, I'm still here.