i'm over 8 years out from my last crack use......and truly have NO desire to EVER go down that road again. but just last night watching the ballgame, the announcers said, a couple times, that was a BIG BASE HIT. at one time, THAT would have been enough to have us fighting each other for the phone to make the call. now today, it was like, huh, yeah, bet it was.......
my point is in recovery, we must remain VIGILANT, at all times. because the beast never sleeps. it is out there, in the bushes, waiting, with infinite patience. recovering/recovered addicts are exactly ONE bad decision away.......
after 8 years, it still calls..........i just don't listen. even if i have drug dreams, which i do. even if every once in awhile the voice in my head says.....ya know.......a couple of lines wouldn't be a BAD thing!?