Glad you've made it back. I would suggest embracing all elements of AA, not just meetings. I was one of the people who thought that those alone would do the trick. Thing is, there's more than one side to that triangle. Only taking one of the three parts is like balancing on a stool on just one of its legs. Uncomfortable and precarious. Once I was using all parts of the recovery program. Meetings, fellowship, reading, 12-step work with a sponsor, the things felt more secure and I started getting well.