Yeah, Codemaster..........that's one of the sad parts of letting go. It's only been a little over a month for me, but I can't even think about someone else touching me.
I have male friends that I really love talking to, but none that I'm attracted to and that will take awhile for me.
The time will come when I will be able to love again. I'll know in my heart when that time is.
I was reading this morning in the book by Melody Beattie called "Choices" about taking control of our lives:
"Feel as frustrated as you want. It's better than staying numb. Try to control everything until you run out of yourself. Get depleted if you must. Then turn frustration into fascination. Gain control another way. Deliberatley choose to enter the cave of the unknown.
Step carefully. It's okay if you can't see. It's better that way. Your senses will kick in. Relax. Breathe. Feel your way through until you see a glimmer of light.
........let go of what you think you know. Step inside. Look around. It's okay if you can't figure things out. Shhhh. Listen to the secret: the more you're willing to surrender control, the more powerful you'll become.
Welcome to the mystery of life."
It's all about finding our own personal journey and that's different for everyone.
((hugs))