doggone is right. If I could go back in time 4 years and end it before it got to where I am now, I would.
It only gets worse with time, addicts either progress, or go into recovery. There is no "controlling it" like they seem to try to make us think.
4 years have passed, I could have completed my degree by now.
Instead, it's 2 PM and here I am across town on some random street picking up my ABF who passed out in his car. He left last night at 11 PM. My life has only gotten darker since I have stuck by my addicts side. It's hard and I wish the pain on nobody, although so many people on thjs board understand. You're still in the early stages of your relationship. My best advice to you is get out now before you blink your eyes and you're in my shoes. Love your self enough to walk away <3