Originally Posted by Ruby2

Hi SDI. In the beginning, I desperately wanted a drink to make the pain of not drinking go away. Is there anyone you can talk to?

Stick around and read on here for support. I don't have any experience with self harm but I do know that there are people on here who do.

Is working at the bar your only employment? Seems to me that would be a rough gig to have. Is that something you are also trying to sort out?

Hang in there.