I stayed because my outlook on relationships is sick.
I need to do the work on myself to change. It isn't about AH, I was attracted to him because of what was going on in me.
I hesitate to use this word but 'normal' people when meeting an alcoholic or addict or dysfunctional person spot it and move away. It was my dysfunction that has always drawn me to men which mentally healthier women would step away.
I have met well balanced, nice men. Of course I found them boring.