Yes, you're right, everything is hard....but being sober makes it easier, after a while. At least for me. I don't have to contend with not remembering what I said or did the night before. There are no more hangovers or feeling like crap till 5 pm. The longer you go without drinking, the more you will appreciate these things. In the meantime, try to do things you used to enjoy before drinking became a hobby. Love your kids more. Do things for your husband. Pick up a hobby you've neglected. There is so much more to life than drinking it away. Take care.