i think all of us have the capacity to get overwhelmed if we try to think of EVERYTHING we need to do, should do, shouldn't do, have done, haven't done, etc. - trying to exist while dwelling on the past and fretting over the future.
so we have to break it down into manageable bits. what is the next WISE thing to do? getting off the drink will make everything else so much easier......getting some therapeutic support to works toward optimum mental health is also a wise thing to do. perhaps TODAY is not the day or time to worry about procuring a new full time job...perhaps your full time job is taking care of YOU in mind body and spirit first?