Originally Posted by
brach123 
I'll tell you guys a truth I feel... That I'm not that bad, because I've managed to stop for a period.... I sometimes feel like i'm a phony in AA and that I need to convince them I'm an alcoholic, but really I think I'm trying to convince my self.
That is exactly how I felt. I convinced myself that I wasn't SO bad that I needed to get a sponsor and work the program. For six months I put myself through white knuckling even though I was going to meetings. Almost killed me, and I certainly got to the stage I didn't want to live. That all changed with the step work. It helped me address my alcoholic thinking . Please give it a go.