How did I get here
Hello. I am new to this site and to this experience. I have not heard from nor seen my bf in 24 hours. He is an addict and I am trying to understand what that means for me. We've been together 6 months and this is the 3rd time he has disappeared. This is the longest time. I know he used in the past for years before we ever met but he was clean. I don't know what has caused him to relapse, only he can answer that. I guess my question is how do I stop myself from going crazy with worry? I've driven around looking for him with no luck. I couldn't sleep last night, I was up looking out the window praying he would come home. Tonight will be a repeat. How do you cope with the not knowing and when he does show up what do I do? I'm so angry at him for doing this to himself and to us but I love him and I want to help him, I just don't know how. Any advice is much appreciated.