I guess what keeps me on track is .......Some days I get a lot of anxiety triggers that bring me down and keep me from eating and just feeling anxious....This also keeps me from wanting to drink, believe it or not because I know it will make things worse before it gets better!
For some, the anxiety drives the TO drink....For me....it keeps me from it....
I don't know....sigh....I wanna feel good all the time....but Im still having trouble accepting the good feelings, almost as if I feel guilty about feeling good....feeling normal....
Seems its when Im feeling good is when I let my guard down and think Im ok to drink because I somehow feel 'Cured'.
I know it's weird, but.....Does this make any sense?
So its the 'Good' days I have to watch out for. The 'bad' days only validate and remind me of what I used to feel after I drank heavily.
For now, Im just going to keep going on my sober journey, striving for those good days.....After all....They're worth it....