Originally Posted by
MissPerfumado 
Looking back I'm amazed how anxious and out of sorts I was in comparison to how I feel now at about five months. I didn't realise at the time it was a kind of emotional rewiring.
I used alcohol as a crutch for so long I didn't know how to deal with anything at first.
You mean I have to be awake all the time? Even when I'm mad or sad?!
That's how I describe sobriety. I'm awake all the time. I didn't like this much at first but I've grown to be okay with it. It's certainly better than the terror of active alcoholism.
It also helped me to accept that alcohol was a crutch for a while, like five years. Then it evolved into a serious addiction where I continued using it despite any and all consequences. No doctor/shrink in the world would say that's a good or healthy thing to rely on!
When I was sober the first few months I thought that I would never get used to a life without alcohol.
Wrong.
Around a year I got completed used to not drinking. Like, there was no
there there. Trust me. It happens. But that doesn't mean I don't keep an awareness.