Hi Sharpy - sorry you're down today
One thing I've discovered in recovery is although I still have bad days, they more often than not stay as bad days, not bad weeks, months or even years
It took me a little while to work out who sober me was because that kept changing at a bewildering rate for the first few weeks...by 90 days I was started to get some consistency on things. I know you will too
and always remember you're not alone - we're here if you need us
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