You're doing the right things, facing your responsibilities squarely, and with dignity. Sounds really good to me.
Mindfulness, like any skill, takes practice - and gets better with time.
I can relate to your impatience to move on from these responsibilities, though. In fact, I have spent most of my life living for what's next, where I'm not even fully enjoying the good stuff.
Keep doing what's right, and turn to others who understand for support when it's difficult.
